Storytime: Remembering My First Heartbreak

I remember experiencing my first heartbreak. I was 16 yrs old and I had been with my 1st love for over a year. I was so in love with him, and I knew he loved me too. One day he called me on a Saturday afternoon. I remember it clear as day because I was sitting in front of a window reading a book when I got the call. He called to tell me that he would be leaving New York in a few weeks and would be ending our relationship.

I mean, out of nowhere!

He was leaving, ending our relationship and he didn’t even offer an explanation! I was so shocked! I didn’t know what to say. At first, I thought he was joking, but after days and days of conversation on the phone, his story didn’t change. I begged and pleaded for him to reconsider, but he said it was something he had to do. I cried uncontrollably for days because the thought of losing not only my boyfriend but my best friend tore me apart.

After a week of crying, I forced myself to make peace with his decision. I told him I was gonna support him and wished him all the best on his move. At that moment he said to me “It was all a test.” 

Yep!  A TEST! Can you imagine?

I mean the nerve of this guy! He was just testing to see what my reaction would be if something like this were to really happen. I couldn’t believe it. I never felt so hurt and betrayed in all my life. But here’s the gag…I stayed with him for another three years after that.

I know you’re shaking your head at me right now, but it’s true. I stayed with him for an additional three years after what he did to me. My only defense is, I was young and I still learning. 

Plus, I really did love him.

I guess it’s true what they say, “Everybody plays the fool sometimes” which is ok, as long as it makes you a better person in the end.